Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air.

Constellation.

2007-06-05T14:47:53Z

Hello.

Well man, life. Since last update it has been very good.
Upto loads, absoultely have not one penny saved from this whole years working! Hours have been cut down to 20 hours now and most weekends off which is pureee fine by me.
Seen Mauro Picotto with ma main man Betty and Eddie Halliwell again with the boys.
CSS and Ratatat, Klaxons OH MY GOD I GOT TONSILLITIS FOR BOOKA SHADE and Armin Van Buuren, absoultely devastated so I was. Then I got TONSILLITIS AGAIN AND ALSO A KIDNEY INFECTION, what even is that! Loads of crapland things happened too but thats just life and thats just that haha.

Acht who knows, a lot of 19ths, and just out loads with my friends. On the one lovely day I had off me and Lesley and others went for a wee vodka picnic and ended up the drunkest in forever, we all did, who knows anything haha, a women ran me to the Edge jeez, met Adam in that lovely state I was in, first time I had seen him properly really since we broke up, was just a riot to life. Acht.

Rooms coming along nicely, got my chandalier up and bed arrived yesterday soo ayee just need to go wild and get loads of wee things for it, can't find nice furniture anywhere, like the dark wood kind with black hinges, jeez.

Adams wee sister an I went to Sneakys on Friday, was hilarious hahahaha, its still the best laugh ever I think but it really is the worst place ever and I dont think anyone at ALL is 18 now but who even cares haha. Was sad though in the house and that with wee Cat.

Coloursfest as well, Tidy Boys did it for meeeee, absoultely OH MY amazing. Spent most time in Tidy Arena..infact spent most my time QUEUEUEING FOR LIFE and then headed to the main one for Ferry Corsten and Marco V who were also genius. Was absoultely gutted about the 45 minute wait for a drink or a pee, was awayyyyy for the first 5 hours then sober and knackered the last five but was just buzzing off everyone else haha. Some people are HILARIOUS. Me and Lee lost everyone as well and I had no money in my phone and was going out my mind with worry haha and I felt like a hassle everytime I needed to pee haha, ach I dunno really, wasn't what I was expecting but was still pure brilliant.

Anyway man, who actually even knows! I wish I had all the answers. HAHA so does Gemma. I've never hated a holiday so much in my life and I'm not even going.

But ayee still lots lots lots coming up! And a rainy summer with less hours to be worked is good. I have sugracoated everything that is crap in this entry by like one million. It is absolutely hilarious how things change so much and you would never expect it.

x

Hide and seek in Geisha's garden.

2007-03-29T19:32:57Z

I made a new livejournal for a laugh. NOT REALLY, its not funny but I'm keeping this one aussi for the memories man, the memories.

x

I FORGOT TO SAY WHAT IT WAS CALLED HAHA,

inwhiterooms

In white rooms.

2007-03-25T21:27:21Z

Hello.

So aye many a things have been going on. Some amazing and some pure pooheads man.
I am no longer with Adam, I know it's for the best well at least think it is but I don't know. I am obviously still gutted about everything and have my moments but who knows. 18 man. Whatever will be will be.

Still working away like a madman and still being a pushover in the workplace haha. At least I'll be loaded for the summer. Don't think I'm going on any holidays though, well not just now anyway but got T in the Park, Coloursfest and Global Gathering to pure look forward to. Tiesto is back in June, yas. So aye I think I'd prolly rather just do loads of wee amazing things anyway.

Sent away my acceptance to the Met so thats that as well. Haha. Rooms getting done up at the moment. Waay but just plain Jane cause I've not decided on anything yet aaaah.

Went to the Subclub last night for Beths 19th and back to Julias for a bit, pure had work today but, gutted, man I just love her. We shall feel the build ups on Saturday at Mauro Picotto.

Acht I just don't know, I couldn't even tell you how I feel just now. Just pure madness. I wish just knew how everyone felt, without all the fannying about in life. No time for it really. No time for anyone today. Haha.

x

Oh and it's raining again...

2007-02-25T16:04:42Z

Well hellooo.
I've pure abandonded the life out of this man. Life has been ok. Still working away, not as much so its all good man. Been doing loads and loads man and just loving life but I still dont love it that much just now. Because I'm a twat man. Over reacting about things when its obvious I shouldnt even be and then pushing people away because I dont know what else to do.
I feel I'm to blame but I'm not even actually, blah blah blah shush woman.

This week was Essence Dj final with the boys on Sunday, my big brother is a legend. Art School with Beth on Thursday was a very good night, she is the love of my life. Was my works night out last night, the big whole of Debenhams one in Tiger Tiger. It was an amazing night I must say, I got so drunk though and I fell and it was horrificicicic and I can't stop seeing it in my head and then shaking my head at myself hahaha. I BLAME IT ON the fake snow, cause it was a winter wonderland. Anyway man, brilliant night, went to Guru afterwards and got a cheap cheap taxi home. I love how Penny Cabs pure phone you every two seconds to make sure your ok and that. Man all I can think about is the mini spring rolls, they were amamamazing! I wish Mary and Jen were oout.

Julies 18 now, waaaaaay, we need to ARRANGE another meal and night out Julie cause I had the best time ever man, like the pure olden days :( PAUL VAN DYK AN ERIC PRYDZ was the best night of my life in a very long time, I love Beth, FOR AN ANGEL will remain in my life forever, I will never forget that feeling ever in my life.

Too young for all this nonsense in my head haha, wheres Lee?

xx

poetictragedy16 @ 2007-02-09T07:28:00

2007-02-09T19:26:38Z

OMG WARREN SAVED THE DAY!!!

why are we not together WHYY :(

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AFTERMATH.

2007-01-16T16:00:32Z

Man alive, I've pure got loads to say but I can't remember any of it haha. Had a very nice New Year at my family in Chelmsford since I had a whole FIVE DAYS OFF WHAAT. So that was pure nice, good to get away. The day before was EDDIE HALLIWELL, pure amamamamazing. noone appreciates build ups as much as me and Beth, NOONE MAN. Got my day off for Paul Van Dyk and Eric Prydzz, we will die if Aftermath is amoungst how good its gonna be. Btw Casey you'll be up on the table next time dear!

Day off today and yesterday but Im pure no well really. Went to Essence for Heanys bros Dj comp, was great man, Betty Muldoon came along and we just lived life man and went to the Edge afterwards. I've never been so sick in my life, I dont understand how it came to be, but it was such a good night. I don't know what I'd do without Beth sometimes haha.

Back to work tomorrow until like next THURSDAY man alive. Going on a wee mini work night out tomorrow but Ill get the last train home from Queen Street, does anyone know when that is cause I heard its later than what it used to be man?

Also, please to God if anyone has Under The Knife for their DS please help me dismantle the bomb, its so enraging cause I love the game and I just want to move on in life from it!

Julie your 18 soon, where are you?

I'm going to do events management at the Met in the summer, I've finally decided man, so its all sorted and I'm quite looking forward to it man, I really am, especially if you go straight into 3rd year afterwards, it just the same man.

poetictragedy16 @ 2006-12-25T23:26:00

2006-12-25T23:27:38Z

Ahh, just a wee quick update before I go to bed as I've got work at 8 :(
Pure had a wee good Christmas there, just me, Antony, mum, dad and the dogs.
Woke up thinking I had work and then was like aw naww and got all giddy haha. Got absolutely looads, and a wii man yas, I love it. Me and my mum just pampered ourselves most of the day with all our new wee bits and bobs. Adam got me a Sophie Harley ring which I shall never take off ever, its soo beautiful haha and the wee Cath Kidston Nokia, so if anyone wants ma wee number gee us a wee msg since I FINALLY have a phone after months.
I feel actually filled to the brim man but I shall have a wee toast and turkey and tea before I go to bed.
Acht feel sad a wee bit eh cos its all gonna go to back to normal. AH well was fun while it lasted. I pure cant stop playing Red Steel even though I have nooo idea what I'm even doing man. Got Adams uncles wee 50th tomorrow, then Inside Out on Wednesday mon a Edddiieeeee ahhh, then off to my family to England for a wee few days, will be nice to have a wee break, spend like the £1 I have left of my wages god damn.

Not been upto much, well I've been utpto loads but I can't remember since I've nae updated cos my comps been pure crap and is sent away again, on my brothers laptop the now.

Right well I hope everyone had a lovely wee day, Merry Christmas.

If you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer.

2006-10-24T20:24:34Z

AHH

pure not updated in ten million years.
My computer has BROKE DOWN, MY IPOD HAS DIED AND I LOST MY PHONE.
So Ive been pretty much gutted the past weeks haha and cause of other shite stuff which I dont care about anymore.
Been upto quite a bit, I don't really know where to start or anything haha. Working full time now, I actually quite like it and that, just get so so tired haha.

Last time I was out properly was with the boys at the Vault which was very good fun but I havent been since I had an INFECTED toe hahahaha and on antibiotics as horrible as it pure sounds haha. Wen to KOKOS yas, pure need to go back soon, I just sat my laser gun and went down all the chutes and I was still scared of the big one haha. Went to see Peaches too with my toe haha but it was great man, me and Lee loveddd it anyway.

Went to see Lily Allen last night was like the pure best night in forages man, shes so amazing, seriously man, pure getting my ticket for March. Went with Adam since Gemz is a loser head haha and my big brother and his woman haha.

Man I dont really knowww what Ive been doing, I feel like I never seeeee anyone cause I HAVE NO MEANS of communication or time really.

Going to Blackpool on Saturday, pureee cannot wait, not been since I was like ten years old.
Acht Lily Allen.

xx

If I wear those jeans I can look like Kate Moss.

2006-09-18T16:57:44Z

Hello.

WELL man alive.
I don't know where to start to be honest. Haha. Last week was good, me, Julz, Paul and Seggie went to Centre Point which was great not been in yonkies! Worked most days which btw I pure enjoy nowadays, its not so boring and that anymore acht. On Wednesday, me, Lauren and Lee went out to the Edge, it was great but sooo packed cause of the football, like took like an hour to get served so we just got like one thousand million vodkas and people kept giving me money to get them drinks and stuff so I came home only spending £3 haha, good night I feel!

Friday in work Helen left :( acht, so we had a wee drink and that for her for an hour, which was good cause I wasn't even supposed to be working on Friday haha. Anyway I ended up pure drunk and it wasnt even my fault, just all the managers kept pouring me wine in a happy meal cup haha. Acht then I came home Adam came over and we broke up. I went to his on Saturday and I dont know what happened, I dont even know whats going on. Just some time apart I think.

This weekend has been crazy but I got two accounts in work but an I was like yusss haha. Gemma came down last night and just sat and watched X Factor.
Today I got up and ready to go shopping but not in the mood anymore, so Gemz and Julie are coming over, even though I'm in the pure worst mood in the world ever alive.

I really love Lily Allen, I wish I was her a wee bit haha.

xx

DOES ANYONE KNOW?

2006-09-09T21:40:41Z

IF ANYONE DIDN'T realise the FIVE BODYBAGS didn't include SOPHIE MAN! SHE WAS IN THE church. SO.... who are the THREE DEAD PEOPLE MAN? :(

DOES ANYONE KNOW?

xxxx

Julie just pure made me realise man, I can't believe I neverrr thought of this!

And before you sleep at night, You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.

2006-09-08T16:48:12Z

Acht what in the name, pure 3rd attempt to write stuff in this. god damn AOL.
Anyway last night was amazing, everyone ever really sort of was out for Megan and Rebecca moving away :(
It was the biggest laugh ever, really man. Was so so drunk but in a pure good way, many cuts and bruises but haha. Beth came out as well, pure first time been out in Coatbridge with her, was amazing, Satelites and Silenceeee pure top of our voices and dancing all night. ALL night, haha.

Achtttt paying for it today though if everyones being honest :( so night in. I'm pure over excited for Hollyoaks haha. I THINK I might even be missing JEEZ.

Too many people are leaving me its beyond a joke :( Lauren next week, what WILL I DOO man. Also, too much in my head right now haha aachttt WHY oh why?

Also I know I look terrible in most of those pictures but its all in good fun.

Xx

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2006-09-02T19:34:22Z

Well not updated in yonkies. My birthday was pure brilliant I had the pure best night ever and my DS is the love of my life.

Went to Cursive and that was amazing! Lesleys 18th was good too, was good seeing people I hadn't in ages and that :)

Worked 9-6 most of this week (got the best Happy Meal toy ever, the wee Real 2 Real music thing) was off on Thursday so me and Lauren went out on Wednesday and was a pure good laugh hahaha shes pure amazing, gonna miss her hunners when she leaves me man :(

Last night Gemz came down and we got two bottles of Blossom Hill and decided just to stay in have a girl night but we ended on going out with everyone and it was the best night ever hahaha! Can't believe how much I drank. Awch jeez but cjksacbkhcbjhcb ah well.

Tonight I shall stay in since I'm just in man and pure shattered, X Factor just broke my heart man. Have that girl night on ma tod haha.

poetictragedy16 @ 2006-08-26T14:27:00

2006-08-26T13:23:36Z

ILL WRITE STUFF WHEN I GET HOME COS MY DSL IS FLASHING AND I NEED TO DO IT NOOW BEFORE I KILL MYSELF COS OF AOL.

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poetictragedy16 @ 2006-08-24T11:41:00

2006-08-24T10:40:13Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Finally lylylylyly EIGHTEEN.

aaaaaahhhhh thee excitement.

x x x x x x x x

All dressed up with you.

2006-07-27T14:05:12Z

Man alive the weather is lovely and I'm gonna be stuck in Shitenhams :( Last night was pure amazing. Lauren and Casey came to mine and we moaned about crap then Matthew came and picked us up and we went to the Edge and just pure had a good night, bit mental at the end but ah well haha, I can't remember much about near the end and I've not had that in pure ages haha. Pure good though, took my mind of life hahaha. Just back from seeing wee Beth at her job, ended up getting a run there and back after my plans to be good and walk went to poo. Went to the video shop for a wee film for tonight after work. Acht.

All of these awkward jump start stalling conversations mean much more to me than anything.

2006-07-21T19:59:45Z

Hello.

Man I'm updating instead of Big Brother because it just makes me enraged, I think if Jayne stays in tonight I'll watch it again, all about Love Island though, gutted Stevo left.

Well anyway i don't really know what I've been upto since my last update, sitting in the sun with my mum and watching channel 4 all morning haha. Betty came down after her new wee jobbbb on Wednesday and we sat on my bed all night watching tv and playing with a gel thing out a bra and it was pure nice haha. I went out with the lads last night to the Edge, it was a good night but I had noone to dance with :( and the one time I go out with ID and I don't get asked, typicaalalalalaaa. Lorna came and took us home and I stayed on this until the birds sang haha. Achtttt..

Today I felt pretty blaah so stayed in bed with the tv. I feel like killing myself a wee bit today actually. Decided not to go out tonight. I feeeel anti social with life hahaha, so my wee dad got me some cheap dvds from tesco. And my mum bought me a bikini that gives me SORT OF boobs and not pure flat HAHAHA, which is a miracle on 34th Street. So if anyone wants to head down to the Time Capsule anytime soon? haha.

Man JEEZ Louise but I feel everyone should download Lily Allens album, its the best thing I've heard this year, shes a legend and every song on it is amazing, nae weak links haha.

Well thats all I suppose for this anyway, gonna go and feel like a dickhead for the rest of the night.

xx

If you leave me now, you'll take away the biggest part of me oooh ohh ohhhhhhhhhhh

2006-07-14T20:41:55Z

I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO WATCH BIG BROTHER EVER AGAIN NOW FOR MAKING ME FEEL THIS BAD! I feel like part of me has died.

NIIKKIII, I love you :( me and Gemma are DEVASTATED.

Even though the stars are blind.

2006-07-14T15:07:30Z

CHIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN CHINNNNNNNNN CHIN CHIN CHIN.

Hello!

Well wee mini update.
Weekend was poo cause I worked one million hours and just slept blah. But this week has been good ayee. Monday, Gemz and Julz came over and we watched Just Like Heaven and Pretty In Pink. Was nice.

Tuesday was Peters party! Was really really good man. Then Julz C and me went back to Adams.
Just been at his a lot cause he has his house to himself . Yesterday was good had a wee BBQ and that since it brightened up finally and my mum made lasagne for us haha.

Im pureee axuhkjxnkj between Love Island and Big Brotherrr, ahhhh. God knows what I'll watch tonight since I'm staying in cause earllrlrly tomorrow :( think Gemz is coming over soon though. I need to tidy my room.
I just made £10 by writing songs on a piece of paper haha, yas!

Anyway, xx

At the same time, you keep tracking treasure down.

2006-07-02T21:40:47Z

HEANEYS 18TH.

ADAMS 18TH.

Ahhh so another wee amazing weekend was had.
Friday was Heaneys 18th! Was a pure pure good night. 'Heaneys dad, Boyceys daughter.'
After me, Lauren, Gemma and Seggie went to Sneakys and everyone was there and it was really good too, Gaving yas.

Saturday I had work, gutted out my face then met my mum and got a dress for Adams party and got caught in the walk for ten years. Finally got to Adams and met his family and everything, pure under pressure but I soon got a wee drink in me and was fine. I loved his granda to bits, he was pure amazing. He got a car pfffttt haha. Ahhh anyways was pureeeee a good night as well :)

TODAY I am dying with the cold or flu or whatever, burning up and that. My mum keeps saying 'Feed a cold, starve a fever' so God knows hahaha.

Work tomorrow, dunno if I shall make it eh.

xx

Tell me whyyyyyyyyyyy.

2006-06-28T22:39:37Z

AHH

I don't have anything to say reallyy.
Still getting over Friday, I can't stop, neither can Gemma haha. She came up last night for the Oc finale and we cried for one second and then we had a laughing fit and Ryan just SMILED at her like YAS yer dead, I don't think shes dead but EVEN thought I know she is but do I? hmm.

Today I raaaan and met Gemma at TEN man and went into town got Adam his birthday stuff, catastophy but acht whatever we shall see haha if I were boy I'd like them.

MAYBE I just want to show off my user icon, I still wish I had my Tiesto one but it was crackly man, acht.

Gemmas coming over tomorrow after work with a munch box yas!

Weekend is loooooking good, Sunday off after Adams so that will be good and then like full time from Monday :( ah well, money eh. PURE HAYFEVER man, like my eyes at night and my nose during the day.

Can't stop listening to Supermode man, takes me back HAHAHA.

SO TELL ME WHERE YOU AREEE? ohhh ohhhh ohhh tell me how you feel? AAHHHHHHHHHH.

2006-06-24T21:10:19Z

WELL.

Last night was hands down the best night of my entire life so far!
I actually nearly died with the amazingness from the legend that is Tiësto.
I'll never got over how amazing it was, especially the end. When it was me, Gemma, big brother and his pals and then TRAFFIC the Rain Down On Me and akjxnakxbuwegyxwucb. He didn't play all his stuff like but who even cares, played the stuff that matters and ahhhh.

Today I went to work absoultely DYING and had to go home with 'cramp' but who even cares was worth this feeling today I will tell you that much.

http://www.dontstayin.com/uk/glasgow/carling-academy/2006/jun/23/gallery-103974/home/photok-2659918

You can see mine and Gemmas head the back of it not clearly at all but I can see it haha. ANYWAY watch the video anyway and get so jealous that you wish you were dead. BTW ITS THE LAST VIDEO haha.

MAN ALIVE.

xx

ALSO to make matters MORE AMAZING Cursive ONE DAY AFTER MY 18TH, whattttttt :) :)

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2006-06-18T21:17:19Z

Hello wee quick update missing BB ahh.

WELL ANYWAY my weekend has been actually amazing.
Friday night was Allys beach party! I loved it, met loads of people I hadn't seen a long long time and just had a great time. I left a wee bit earlier though cause I had work early, gutted. I had the worst nights sleep of my whole entire life, it was like one hour cause I just felt restless and I dont even know then the next minute my mums shouting on me to get up at 6 and I started crying and everything, Work was ok but, flew in and Jazzy Jeff came in and saw me which cheered me up!

Rushed home got ready and Gemz, Lauren, Seggie and Heaney came round, had a quick drink and went to Liams 18th WHICH WAS SO SO GOOD. Like my mum and dad, my neighbours and Liams whole entire family which are kinda like my family were pure there and it was so good! Got drunk and my dad was also but he preteneds he wasnt but he was up dancing to TIESTO haha what a legend man hahaha, It was so amazing, then we went back to Liams and I ate 27 sandwiches and akcsjcksa pure good.

Today worked and now I'm so so so tired had nae sleep and a sore belly.

ANYWAY I have missed BB now so I will watch it tomorrow haha, GOODNIGHT xx

Do the hustle.

2006-06-08T17:54:09Z

Hey!

Everything is good, having a great wee holiday so far anyway.
Friday me and Gemma went to Sneakys and had the best laugh ever but I tore ligaments hahahahaha but its all good cause I went to the hospital and I've been doing the mad exercises and that haha, went to Ayr for the night on Saturday and was okie had the best kebab ever though.
Monday Gemma and I went to Gavins gig and it was a nice night, Gavs number fucking wan :P haha. Happy Birthday to Markattack also and that.
Tuesday went into town with for prom stuff but I begged him to go and see The Omen on the 6/6/06, legend. It was good, Damien annoyed me in it though not as good as the original.
Wednesday was the Prom and it was really good. I had Beths ID so it was great haha and I just had a pure good night with everyone. Wee bit mental near the end but I'm over it eh haha. Went to the Edge with Lauren, Kerry, Megan and Wilson and met Gemz and Julz C in there and was a good nighttttt.

Just now Gemz is here and am about to get ma dinner yas.

Hunner and hunners of pictures!

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks, I am struggling. Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner café.

2006-05-29T22:07:22Z

Hello.

Well todays been poo, so failed Geography and I'm pure not even kidding on but its ok cause I'm already over it. I pure don't feel well and I feel like I need to be sick and I have a sore throat.

Man I love Big Brother more than life a wee bit just now. Beth and I just sat and moaned about it for ten days in a row. I think Nikki is the most amazing, shes so funny and I love how she pronounces every letter and who cares if she wants to just moan cause she feels sad like any other girl does and let her arse hang out, so does Grace stupid dickhead, I hate her. Get her dry samon and fathead out and away from my wee Nikki.

Awcht anyways tomorrow shall study for Psycholology on Wednesday then Beths coming over cause we haven't spoke in real like in ages and we both have nice prom dresses from the same shop. Lol. I cannot wait until the prom now.

I'm working in Debenhams again just until the 27th of August though but thats fine and then I'll be 18, woot. I hope I manage to get to Deftones on Thursday man.

Im going to bed man, in a mood but not really.

Moanface, xx

City lights, like rain, dance and explode.

2006-05-26T12:17:48Z

Hello.

Going to Ayr today but its ok cause I need to study so much for Monday and I haven't started and I've lost my study crap and wanna die a wee bit, I wanna go to TBS but acht whatever its ok.

Yesterday went into school and spoke to my teacher about Tiesto haha, met Adam afterwards and went into town. He got me a lovely wee summer dress :) Anyway we went to the pictures and it was like between Brick or Xmen and Smithy told me I'd love Brick so I begged him and we went and it was so crap and I felt bad for trailing him to go see it. We bought Saw 2 and went back to his and ordered in pizzas and just had a nice wee night cause I'm not going to see him for yonkies like.

Anyway today I am going for a bath just now and Lauren is coming over with notes that will MAYBE help save my life.

Righyoh, Gemma sorry if you read this.

xx